My family is all understanding until they want to stir the pot and put the “ass” in assume when it comes to my illness. It’s called an Invisible Illness for a reason and just because what I post alone is what they see doesn’t mean it’s all there is or the whole truth. Yeah, I post myself working out and looking all happy, but the truth is I am dying on the inside and they start accusing me of being lazy for not having a job, and claiming to not be as “sick” because I have an active lifestyle. Look is working out hard? Yess but I make it a priority because it’s all I have to make my body feel healthy, I don’t have a normal healthy life so I do my best with what I have. My family (besides my parents) will never understand because they don’t WANT to understand. They don’t see the constant fainting and me feeling my eyes start seeing black spots and this overwhelming feeling like I’m about to lose control of my balance and my whole body when I stand up. They don’t see the pain that comes with my gastrointestinal issues and sometimes the thought of food makes me sick and I can’t eat certain foods or otherwise I will puke or burp it up. They don’t see the STRUGGLE it takes for me to shower. So why, WHY do you guys, yes family if you’re reading this, why do you feel the need to cause drama in my already chaotic life and contribute to my anxiety. I love you, but I don’t trust you.
I pray things get better
-Caraline
